I just realize that i like to blog whenever i'm pretty down . And i mean really really down . It's like 0222am now I'm supposed to be on my bed now under my warm comforter with my smelly pillow on my face . Life's been pretty different lately , it's so hectic with lots of events and happenings . I can say that my life is kinda happening now but it's somehow sucking my soul . Sleep deprived , Extremely exhausted , mentally and physically .
I'm seriously lacking of sleep . Hopefully when everything is settled i'll have all the rest i need . There are things i would really like to get out of my chest but i can't find anyone suitable to . Not that i don't trust them or they'll judge me . I have my own reasons . I know they care for me and i thank you guys for that .
Come to think of it , people used to say , i'll always be there for you when you need me . But where's that someone when it's 4am in the morning . That's not the point of me blogging . I'm pretty frustrated about something very particular lately , i've struggling to do the right thing . But i'm so confused , so lost . I have no where to turn to . No one to turn to . It's been a long time since i've felt like this . Blogging with teary eyes , This is so not me but i guess that it made a pretty big impact on me . Feel so pressured and it's all coming from myself if only i could just leave things how they're suppose to be and try not to interfere with fate , i'm just scribbling to whatever that came to mind first so nothing is in order . I'm just typing out what i really want to say without being questioned . ARGH i need ***** so badly ): If only i was as strong as i was yesterday .
I really wish that i was , superwomen :/ imissyou:)
I'm seriously lacking of sleep . Hopefully when everything is settled i'll have all the rest i need . There are things i would really like to get out of my chest but i can't find anyone suitable to . Not that i don't trust them or they'll judge me . I have my own reasons . I know they care for me and i thank you guys for that .
Come to think of it , people used to say , i'll always be there for you when you need me . But where's that someone when it's 4am in the morning . That's not the point of me blogging . I'm pretty frustrated about something very particular lately , i've struggling to do the right thing . But i'm so confused , so lost . I have no where to turn to . No one to turn to . It's been a long time since i've felt like this . Blogging with teary eyes , This is so not me but i guess that it made a pretty big impact on me . Feel so pressured and it's all coming from myself if only i could just leave things how they're suppose to be and try not to interfere with fate , i'm just scribbling to whatever that came to mind first so nothing is in order . I'm just typing out what i really want to say without being questioned . ARGH i need ***** so badly ): If only i was as strong as i was yesterday .
I really wish that i was , superwomen :/ imissyou:)
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4am... Cannot la... 3am maybe still got someone awake. XD
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