Bullcrap

I give up ! I don't care anymore . mlm

Just a thought :D

Woke up kinda early today and decided to lay in bed for a little while and decided to think about you . 

Which i haven't done in a while . (: 

The memory of our very first date played vividly in my mind. You and i were both shy towards each other . As the hours go by , things began to heat up and soon we were best of friends . As the sun goes down and the moon came up it was time for us to bid goodbye and depart for now . I will never forget the way you looked at me when i had to go .

The next thing that came to mind was the day you decided to leave , all was good untill you gave my a kiss to remember you by and you told me that you cannot be with me anymore . I was devastated , heart broken . But i manage to pick myself up after all that bullcrap you put me through but i cannot find one reason for me to hate you . Yet i still continued on loving you . 

And they say first love is the deepest .

It's funny because you weren't my first boyfriend , but you were the first guy to ever show me what love means , what love is , and i thank you for that . 

Thank you for being my first love , my deepest (: 

Super short update :D

Happy Raya all ! :D i don't think i'm late right ? It's only the 3rd day . So anyways , Was busy lately but still manage to go visit a few houses xD okay la here are the pics LOL !

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Where's my blogging mojo ?

Long post ahead :0

I'm back from the weekends (x had an awesome yet tiring weekend , Spend most of my time with my brother and friends :D i can't recall what i did on sunday . But went to mcD for lunch on monday and saw , my Dalring and her group of friends . After that went camera hunting , was soooooo close to buying one but then my brother had good reasons why i shouldn't buy YET . So went to shop for some other things , And then headed to a friend's house TO MAPLE ! <3 i am so in love with maple all over AGAIN :D

after few hours of shiokness , went home to have dinner . And over to my aunt's place . Had a sleepover . Then maple maple maple till 5 in the morning . Slept for two hours and continue mapling till noon and back to mcD for lunch AGAIN . Hai bu fattttt omfg == anyway , parkson damn packed . Kanasai , thought there won't be anyone there kok . After lunch , Went shopping again ! Bought three pairs of flats :3 TEEHEE , and then went to merdeka mall . Nothing much there lo . Bought Rm1 sugar bun ice cream . Hahahaha , The rest of the day is boring . You don't wanna know . Gonna end my post with a pic of mine HAHAHAHAH . 

P/S Please don't use it as your wallpaper thanks :3

I wish i didn't know .

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh , been pretty cranky the whole morning . Maybe it's the lack of sleep i'm getting . 

I don't know what are you doing ,

I don't know what are you trying to prove ,

I don't know why can't you see how wrong it is ,

I seriously have no idea why is this happening to you , 

How it happened , Why it happened . Was shocked when i found out . And now since i know about it , I can't bring myself to talk about it to anyone . To be honest i'm ashamed , But i know one thing for sure that it is real and it's a fact that i have to live up to .

To keep this from people is killing me inside , I didn't know it would bother me this much . Everytime i lied pretending not to know anything makes me suffocate . At times i really wish i could just blur it all out . Just to get it out of my chest . But i couldn't and i wouldn't because i care for you . Everytime i watch you fall , I pray that one day , you might be able to open your eyes and look . Hoping that one day you might return .

I've tried my best over and over again trying to protect you . And again i will , try to , But if you're not helping yourself , i'm sure no one else can . It's not fair for me to want this change for you . I really hope that you will want this more instead of me .  It's for the better . I promise . If only you knew what i'm feeling . But . .

No matter what happen , I will always be there for you .

P/S Do not try to ask nor bring this issue up . What has been written shall be left unspoken . I.mean.it

Packed schedule (;

Supp bloggie (x

Just got back from church , Finally finish with the performance , I wouldn't say that it was the best one i've done , But it was at least a new experience . Thank God i had my darling there supporting me . (L) Woohoo . Went for breakfast at 0800 am this morning with ze` musketeers cause two of our friends will be going back to their hometown . For like one week == LOLs , i guess we just love our group too much . Hor ? :D Cause i know i do . After breakfast , headed home straight cause i have to work :O After work , went out for lunch with parents and then off to church with dalring xD Went to shop for food , came back change and then , to church again for the performance that i just mention . Tiring day much . I suppose that's it ? I'm beat , gonna hit the hay alright , tataa ! Oh before that , here are a few pics of the day :P

P/S Hope someone's date went well
P/ss Glad that you guys arrived safely (: